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8/3/07 0 Comments30 days
today is 30 days clean - it's a landmark and a hard one coming. Sometimes I think this is the hardest time, not the first 3 days. Now it is more of a mental battle and not as much physical, but still both. Amazing how fast we getting addicted and how long it takes to get off of it......
otherwise, things are quiet, still waiting to see what happens in the real estate market, still glad to have a job though most days I don't like it. Lately it's getting harder to get up in the morning and I'm not too sure why. I guess I feel like I'm working hard but getting nowhere, though I know that I am: we have a home, food & fun things - meaning my job is worth it.
SO - Loyal love for the weekend - don't get to FREAKY!
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8/2/07 1 CommentReal Estate
so anyone who watches the news or reads the paper knows that the real estate market is going for broke right now. This market has been my life since I was 18 and I am used to the ups and downs that come with it. watching the mortgage companies scramble (the one I work at included) has always been interesting.
right now, I work and I am glad each morning that I have a job to go to, more so since I have no clue how long it will last.
other things are moving along as they should - oh THE HUBBY CLEANED YESTERDAY!!! I thought I had walked into the wrong house! HEART BE STILL, I almost passed out. It looked great, now, how long will it last?
hehehehe
anyway - I'm on myspace IM at work now - hook up and we can chat!
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7/30/07 2 CommentsIt's starts over new
today my buddy is the receptionist where I work. I worked some sneaky stuff and got her in - now I just have to hope it works out. She is only a temp so she is still looking for permantent work. With any luck, this will pan out.
Only down side? she got my hubby looking and now he may have a job at Luxor, sounds great? yea, but who watches the kids???? that was the plan. Not sure how to handle that part cause I know he needs a job but at the same time, we need him at home - the scheduling may become a nightmare because the 2 girls (mine and my buddies) go to elementary school and they cannot be bussed - they are .1 mile to close - WHATEVER.
Went to the CA signing on Sat - it was long but fun. He was, as usual, great to all of his fans. Never rushing them and doing his best to give each of us some quality time. I really enjoyed seeing him. Amanda was there, looking better if not a little worn out. Got to see Mendel (that made the hubby happy) and found out he had a little girl (awwww).
um, that is about all for now - gotta get to work. Look for me on yahoo (mistressbluebyrd@yahoo.com) - I may be invisible so send an IM, I'll respond if I'm there (getting tired of the S&M junkies thinking I'm there for them)...
SMILE
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7/26/07 1 CommentMuggle-ing through
being the muggle that I am, I don't have the magic ability to make everything all better and that really sucks. I'm used to it though. Today is just a day. I'm having some stomach pain and that makes me nervous because I have Crohn's and all I need is a flair up when I have been 22 days clean. They hook me up to all kinds of pain shit when that happens. So.....I'm fighting it.
Just going to keep my head down and work today. Not much else I can do.........every one has been real great when it comes both to me and to Amanda - thanks for everything!
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7/25/07 1 Commentdealing with the day
SO............................I saw Amanda lastnight and chatted with her at the hospital for about 2 hours. I posted on the board about it. She is doing pretty good, and this all good news.
Things here at the office are still, well, in a word shitty. I feel like anything I did prior to Monday is being looked at through the highest power microscope and I really hate answering to someone who has been with the company for 6 months to my 5 years.................again, that would be ego but still - it sucks.
Yesterday was my daughters birthday and a true sign of how much she is growing is that she could care less if she even saw me so I could wish her a happy birthday. I was kinda hurt by that but I guess it is to be expected. She spent all night outside playing with her friends, so I guess that is all to the good.
As for me, I am down and I don't want to be. I have a lot to be happy for (including 21 days perfectly clean from pain medication other than advil) but I can't snap out of it. I've been in a pretty dark place for almost a full month but I think it is all money related. Worried about how we are going to support everyone on my paycheck. I guess it will work out and I just need to trust in myself & know that all of the decisions I have made have taken me to the place I am supposed to be.
Thank you everyone for your awesome response to Amanda yesterday - our family on here in the best!
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